Off Today!!!

Hey ya'll, it's Wednesday and I'm officially off.  But that's just from the gig, I'm never off from life.  Got some running around to do today and it's cold right now.  I look forward to my once a week day off, but know it is also the ONLY day that I can get anything done.  Not having my ride has really put a damper on my traveling, but it's also given me the opportunity to exercise on a regular basis.  Before, I'd drive everywhere, even up the street and around the corner.  Wear and tear on the vehicle, plus unnecessary usage of gas was at an all time high, just because, but once I get it back on the road, you better believe there'll be changes.

Let's see what's on my to-do list, first and foremost have to go check on my 16 year old.  I have a scheduled meeting with his teacher to discuss his grades while he's away.  She called me last week and said that he's doing great and I knew that he would be, I just wish that he was as focused on the "outside," but know that the scholastic environment in our neighborhood doesn't push excellence, even though it boast of it.  I'm really excited for this meeting, not so much to meet his teacher, but to see him.  I haven't seen him since before Christmas and since the vehicle isn't readily available, have to use important meetings as visiting hours as well.  The first time we went down this road, I was there on every available visit to the point that when his time away was coming to an end, he told me I didn't have to come anymore.  I'm like, yeah, right, you're my son, I'll see you as much as I want.  This time, he's kinda on his own and I think it's good for him.  He's 16, growing into a young adult, and independence and not having mommy there at every turn, is probably helping him mature more than last time.  Even the phone calls home don't include me as much.  He'll call, I'll ask how was his day, and he'll tell me and then there will be a moment of silence, and then,  "Um, can you do that for me?" he'll say next.  "That," would be three way-ing his girlfriend and I'll put down the phone after hearing her say, hello, and walk away, letting them talk until his phone time is over.  I don't mind that he doesn't want to talk to me for too long, just as long as his day has gone good, I'm satisfied.  

Once I get home, I'll prepare for my online guest spot on a friend's internet radio station.  Having my own talk show has made me sort of a celebrity and I am thrilled that he wants to include me on his show.  I'm really excited to see what the show brings today.  I'll be able to be a little bit more relaxed than the first time I was on.  I did his show, while on my live show and let's just say, that, I was on pins and needles cause I know how crunk he can get and that includes language not acceptable on my own site.  It was cool though, cause we still had fun and once I told him that I'd rather do his show when I'm not on my show, so I can "let my hair down," he was like, "bet".  So who knows how much laughter we will unleash as I let Red Hawk do her thang, cause folks are used to her keeping it real at any cost.  Not sure how long I'll be on this time, but know that after I'm done, the rest of my day will consist of folding clothes and doing dishes and preparing dinner for the family.  Fiance' is off today, and not sure if we'll have movie night or not, but as long as I've got my computer and the internet, I'll probably be working on something as the day comes to an end.

Well, I'm looking at the old clock on the wall, and I think I have a pretty good post for the day.  Gotta get ready to meet the cold weather and see what the outside world has in store for me today.  Can't be too sure with all the crime that's going on, I just pray I get out and make it back into my peaceful haven.  Until the next time I write, peace, love and light.

The Sweet Smell of Success

Hey ya'll, I decided that I would post again.  You know how addicted to blogging I was when I first started and who knows, I might get addicted again.  So here goes...well by now you've all read about my talk show that has found a new home at, My Gig.  Words can't even begin to express how happy I am for this new development.  Not only do I get to practically roll out of bed, into work, I am fulfilling my life's purpose and guess what, I never even picked up the book, Purpose Driven Life.  I don't even know who wrote it, but I do know that years ago, everyone and their deceased kin folk were grabbing the copies off of shelves AND having all kinds of "purpose driven" book parties and so on.  See that's the thing about me, I don't jump on board everyone's ship, just because I think it's going my way.  I've pretty much been a loner all my life except for the few, dear friends that I met when I was younger and we still hold a special bond, even though we don't get together much.  Years can go by and if we should physically connect, we pick right back up where we left off.  But other than them, I've learned to pretty much keep my nose to my grind and let folks do them and hopefully they let me do me.  But that's getting off topic, which is easy to do with a person who is Tri-polar. You'll have to read back some ways, I think I already posted on that subject.

Okay, where were we, oh yea, talking about me fulfilling my purpose.  Yep, that's where we were.  So right now, six days a week, I climb in my "butt buddy," my chair, and sit for six hours with a one hour break between each three hours and yap to my heart's delight.  Today, I added coffee to my routine and let's just say that my "motor mouth" was working over-time. But that's a good thing, because for what I do, there can't ever be a dull moment.  It is my job to keep my audience entertained so that not only will they hang around for that particular day, but that they will keep coming back, making me a part of their lives, just like any other form of entertainment.  My channel has been called, Trish TV, by some and I think that has a nice lil ring to it.  I really should put a disclaimer somewhere because watching me is very addicting.  I don't know what it is, besides maybe the fact that some find me rather strange, (oh, it's okay, I accept all labels that I agree with), and just can't wait to see what I'm going to do next.  But anywho, like I was saying, I couldn't be happier with the way that my life is today.  Of course it could be better, but it certainly isn't as worse as it used to be.

Things finally appear to be running smoothly down the track, and I'm not sure where we're headed, but know it's a better place than where we've been.  The year, 2013, is turning out to be quite some year already.  I can only imagine if it keeps it's current pattern, how things will be.  They say trouble don't last always and it seems as if I can finally breath a sigh of relief as things are coming together, day by day.  Every day there's something new, something exciting to get happy about.  The smile that's almost constantly on my face, seems to shine a little brighter as I look back at myself each day on camera.  It's funny, I never looked at myself this much in my life, even as a hot to trot teenager, well, at least I can't recall.  What I see, I love, because I've finally become comfortable and confident in the skin I'm in.  Could it be because I'm walking down the path that was set before me, so long ago, and all I had to do is keep going, no matter how tired I got, no matter how disappointed I became, no matter how frustrating things were and no matter how many tears of desperation I cried?  Who knows, but one thing's for sure, my star is rising and it's shinning brighter and brighter as the days go by.

I Made It!!!

Wow, it's been way too long.  We've come into another year and I'm just now getting around to blogging my first post of the year.  But never fear, this one is packed with good news.  I'm actually writing it while on my online talk show that has taken off like wild fire.  Yes, your girl has secured a spot on an online site that gives each broadcaster the opportunity to become a star.  After being in front of a web cam for almost two years now, once this opportunity presented itself, I was more than ready to jump into the spotlight.  I've just started my fifth week on the site and have already made a claim of being one of the top stars of the site.  I dubbed myself, Queen Motor Mouth of Mondo, which others hurriedly agree with.  It's no secret that my mouth can go a mile a minute and it's a good thing.  My channel is the most like a real talk show and my viewers are never left wondering if today's show will deliver.  I don't have any scripts or anything like that.  I just get on each day, knowing that the work that I do through my advising, life-coaching and motivational speaking will touch my viewers.

So many people are emotionally and mentally broken and sometimes they just need to know that someone else has made it through a similar experience as they are in.  At 45, I've been through quite a few trials and tribulations and don't mind sharing, as I believe that it's my purpose to help guide others out of distressful situations.  It's like I 'm a beacon of hope and the strength that I possess seems to transfer to my viewers as I share my wisdom with them.  I have about six loyal viewers to date and that number is gradually increasing as I get more exposure on the site.  My channel is not for everyone.  A lot of people are not ready for the big step that it takes to walk onto a more fulfilling path.  They are still trying to make something happen out of what they are familiar with.  They're basically spinning their wheels in the muddy mess they've found themselves in, hoping and praying that things will change.  I direct them to look at their situation, face reality and decide what to do next.

My own online talk show has also lead me onto other talk shows as well.  I've done two internet radio interviews and I've been asked to participate as a weekly guest speaker on one of the talk shows, Thursday Spot.  One thing leads to another, and I knew that one day all of my hard work and dedication to the one thing that is my passion would pay off.  What started out as a dream, that lead to me practicing it as a hobby, has now become my bread and butter.  Things can only get better from this point on as I continue walking on my pre-destined path.  You can catch me everyday except Wednesdays at  My Gig, 10:00 a.m. to 5:00 p.m. Central.

Straight Talk with Red Hawk

Theme Music For Straight Talk with Red Hawk
Okay, so by now, if you've been reading my blogs, you know that I have been working on quite a few things since last year.  Besides working on more writing material, I've been working on getting my talk show off the ground.  Being an advisor on a psychic video chat site has enabled me to develop a following, as well as build my confidence to do what I do naturally and that is advise.  With that said, the birth of my talk show, Straight Talk with Red Hawk is soon approaching.  Nine months of being in front of the world on a site that brings out some of the worst people in the world has developed the thick skin needed to be in front of the camera for all of the world to see.  But being in front of the camera is not for me, it's for the thousands of hurting people who have been led to my room since March 22, 2011. 

Working on that particular site has it's drawbacks though.  For one, no matter how rude a visitor is, the rule is that I can't be rude back.  Are you serious, me not give them back what they need when they come at me sideways is not in my character.  I must admit that when I first started working there, some would come to see what kind of can of whoop ass I was going to open up on anyone who disrespected me.  After all, I'm trying to save the world in the little time that we have left and you wanna come up in my peaceful room and cause a disturbance???  But over time, I learned to just verbally spank them with the truth or attention that they were looking for and send them on their way.   Which brings us to nine months later and even though the site has calmed down considerably, I believe it is my time to move on to greener pastures, well, at least explore other avenues of doing what I do without the threat of people who obviously delight in misery coming in, interrupting my flow and trying to keep the people who genuinely need my assistance from getting what they need.

Straight Talk with Red Hawk has been developing in my mind for quite some time.  It has always been my desire to help as many people at one time while fulfilling my life's destiny of being a motivational speaker and talk show host.  I do it nightly, and am now looking for the right platform to do so.  I love the space that I am at now, but there are restrictions and a person like me, with so much to achieve in so little time, does not need restrictions when it comes to living out my life's mission.  For what I do there, the financial gain is limited.  I'd love to have a night where everyone who needs what I have is willing and able to pay for my services as they should.  When I have to spend five minutes on one of my impromptu commercials telling them they NEED and SHOULD take me private, is irritating to say the least.

So as I'm developing my talk show format, I'm also looking for sponsorship.  Nope, nothing major, just people who are willing and able to pay for the time that they spend in my room, getting fat and full off of my wisdom and entertained by my energetic presence.  I know I was born to do what I am doing, and therefore now that I'm on my chosen path, it's time to put money to my time.  I've been compared to Ms. O, Dr. Phil and even Wendy Williams, if that's the case, I need a handful of what they're making, doing what they're doing.

Sponsorship for my show can be simply put into my paypal account at makindineros@yahoo.com.  I'm not going to tell you how much to send, that's on how much you feel my time is worth to you.  For the amount of time I spend trying to get my due at my present site, I'd rather not even bring up finances, as I think it's more important to stay on topic with healing the hurting spirits that come into my room daily.  Once I find my new digs and set up a schedule, I'll be sure to update my followers as to where they can find me, until then, continue to check me out at Present Home of Straight Talk with Red Hawk.

Ram in the Bush

All who know me, know that I am a very spiritual person.  I didn't say that I was a "shoe-in" to Heaven, I said that I am a VERY spiritual person.  With that said, let me begin my post.  As a spiritual person, I believe that everything happens for a reason and that when one door closes, another one HAS to open, it just does.  Case in point, today, was expecting money from a source, an unreliable source, but a source nonetheless.  As fate would have it, when I need money the most, it is not available.  Before disappointment took root and ruined my day, I reminded myself that this money is NOT promised, therefore I can not and should not ever depend on it to save the day.  After calming my spirit, I set back on my quest of making something else MORE reliable happen to spring forth some kind of cash flow.  Let me tell you that with everything that I have going on, as long as there is a trickle of cash, I have something to work with.  I live on bare necessities at this point, so no real need for millions just yet.  So I am truly grateful to have two pennies to rub together at the end of the day.  Two pennies plus two pennies equal four pennies and so on. 

Getting back to the topic, Ram in the Bush...after getting back onto my computer and checking my emails, there awaiting me was an unexpected email that I was sure to see in about four more days, but was staring me right in the face TODAY!!!  My ram in the bush was here.  As relief flooded over me, knowing that I didn't have to go the entire weekend without accomplishing some of my financial obligations, I thanked God for seeing me through.  Days like this I am trying to alleviate from my life.  I've claimed 2012 as my year of "getting out of this hell," the hell of lack.  I wanna have enough cash flowing that I can take care of all of my bills, which aren't many, I wanna have enough cash flowing so that I can take advantage of things on sale when I want them, not necessarily when I NEED them and they are NOT on sale, I just wanna live comfortably without wondering who, what and where, my next stream of cash is coming from. 

I think I have a pretty good supply of streams, just need to get the CONTINUOUS flow going.  I mean, I appreciate the trickles, but would really love to see what it feels like to live in abundance as opposed to constant lack.  I'm doing my best to create that which I seek and believe that in due time, before I know it, my monsoon of cash will overtake me and these days of lack will be no more. 

Trisha's Treasures: Gems of Inspiration

Shameless promotion this year is the only way that I see me reaching the people who are going to become supporters of my work as well as followers of my brand.  Not sure where we're going, but want to invite those whose eyes have found themselves reading these words to get on the train to glory.  They say every journey has to start somewhere and well, mine starts here.  If this is your first time meeting my words, then you are in the middle of my success story.  I've been on this journey for quite some time, nineteen years to be exact.  I wrote my first book when I was twenty-five years old and if Ms. Winfrey had given me a chance like she did that bogus story writer, who knows where I would be today.  But since she didn't, I've had to crawl my way at a snails pace, year after year, project after project, hope after hope, to this very day. 

In the midst of me raising my four children, two of whom I'm still TRYING to raise, I've planted all kinds of creative seeds within my own garden of success.  I must say that I've tried all kinds of endeavors to get to my mountain top.  After leaving a job that I worked at for thirteen years, I started my own mobile spa service.  That endeavor was made possible by me becoming a product seller for a wellness company.  You can say that I'm an opportunist at best, always looking for the opportunity to make something new and exciting and LUCRATIVE happen.  My spa service was a great way for me to meet new people and provide a service that many felt was more of a luxury than anything.  But that's probably because they didn't understand the importance of self-love and enjoying the blessing of someone catering to their poor, tired feet and spirit and so that business didn't last too long.  I also think it was because of my location.  Had I been in California or even Florida, I believe I would have had more feet than I could ever imagine on my client list. 

But that was many moons ago and now I'm just concentrating on my creative seeds by spreading words of wisdom through my writing and speaking endeavors.  I'm on book number three with several more beating on my mind to escape from brain to paper, daily.  Which brings us to the title of this post,  Trisha's Treasures: Gems of Inspiration.  This book took me over four years to complete.  It started out as a few one-liners to be used as bumper stickers or t-shirt slogans, but as they grew daily, I decided to turn them into a book.  The title was the last thing that came to me.  Trisha's Treasures: Gems of Inspiration is full of lil nuggets of thought-provoking words that, if applied to our daily lives, could turn each of us into productive AND positive people.  Not to say that you're not already that, but there is a whole group of people who could benefit from browsing the pages and getting a dose of  what I'd like to call, "think right".  So perhaps YOU don't need this book, but feel there is someone in your life who could benefit from some "gems" in their life, go on and purchase a copy for them.  It will be the best form of charity you do this year.  Once they open the pages, they won't be able to put it down and once they do put it down, they'll pick it up over and over again.  Why???  Because it's anointed. 

Today I Cried

Yep, today I cried.  I don't cry that often; I'm too strong for that.  But I wasn't always THIS strong, so over the years, from birth to about three years ago, I'd say I've cried an ocean of tears for some reason or another.  For the most part, I've not had a reason to cry.  Well I have, but what good would crying do, it wouldn't help the situations that I've been dealing with, so why waste the energy?  But today I cried.  I let a multitude of years gone by worth of disappointment, confusion and frustration pour out of my eyes in the form of tears, as my throat threw up pitiful sounds of heart wrenching moans that only God could possibly understand.  I sobbed uncontrollably as my fiance', who had made the mistake of showing disappointment the night before in regards to what he thought I had prepared for dinner and finding out it wasn't what he thought it was, tried to console me.  Too late for consolation.  It was his innocent act of disappointment that triggered my crying session as he tried to explain his attitude from the previous night and apologize for upsetting me. 

Although 2011 was a great year in regards to me fulfilling some of my goals, it was also plagued with things that I never thought I'd have to go through.  Never say never, huh???  Too draining to elaborate, I'll just say that my relationship with my daughter is strained, my fiance' and I were separated for three months due to his past, my son got caught up with some bad kids and is away from home until he can prove his innocence, my finances are STILL lacking despite my feverish attempts to change that daily, are among the top things that I've been dealing with.  And on top of all of those things, right before the New Year arrived, some crazy, drug induced fool attempting to smash in one of God's great creations; my face, by throwing a brick, like a fast ball at Cardinal Stadium, at my windshield, passenger side, as we made our way down to an exclusive event  celebrating my fiance's cousin's birthday.  Not wanting to miss the evening we had been waiting for, I coaxed my dear into handling his "business" after the evening was over.  As luck or fate would have it, he was able to take out the money for the new window on the guy's entire outer shell, satisfying us for the moment.

I must say that crying did not change anything that I am dealing with, but the release, although leaving my eyes looking like those of a newborn, naked mole rat once I finally woke back up, has lightened my spirit.  I think about that song where it says, "let her cry cause she's a laaaaadddddaaaaayyyyy" and I remember that it's okay for me to cry when I need to.  Holding tears back cause I think it's weak was something that I never thought while growing up.  I cried about everything.  Not that I'm going to begin crying again about EVERYTHING, but this cry that I cried today, felt great.  It made me feel human again, instead of like a superwomanish robot.  I'm a lady, it's okay to cry, it doesn't mean I'm weak, just means I have emotions and tears are a tool of release.  Let yours flow as well.