My Cash Flow

I guess since I'm posting, might as well post some new developments as well.  Since I launched, Straight Talk with Red Hawk, The Show, my internet based talk show, I've also put together a professional website for my life-coaching services.  My Life-Coach site coincides with another new development, New Gig, where you can actually view me live, when I'm on.  Between all the online stuff going on, don't forget you can purchase what I call, The Bibles of Survival, and have my wisdom and insight at your figure tips.  Well that should be enough to get you back acquainted with yours truly.  P.S.  Don't forget to like our show's like page on facebook, by clicking Like Page.  Until I post again, live, love and learn.  Peace.

Uncertain Future

Wow, it's been a little minute since I blogged over here, but that's alright, just means life has been lived.  So many things have taken place in my life and if I had a reality show, I'm almost certain, I'd have high ratings.  When I sit back and think about all of the events that make up the web of my life, my life could very easily be written into the lines of a soap opera.  Some people say they have no life at all, I say I have an excess of life. From one day to the next, you just never know what's going to take place.  I have teens, so that says a lot within itself.  As of last week, I had a relationship, but not sure where that is right now.  All of my adult life, I've been in a relationship, and the thought of being single at such a late age in life has me feeling giddy, as well as sad, at the same time.  Sad because this last relationship was supposed to last to the term of marriage and beyond.  We gave it four years, but seems like it just fizzled out towards the end.  Giddy because I know that being on my own can only open up endless, positive possibilities that I've not been allowed to explore for working diligently on whatever relationship I was in.  My mind is focused on the many projects that I've let sit dormant over the years.  There are plenty that I've started and they've sat, probably wondering when, oh when, would they see me again.  With my mind now free to wrap itself around said projects, I can only hope that no other life crisis pops up to distract me.

The last few days, I've found myself wandering around the house, seemingly "lost and out of place," for a lack of a better phrase.  As the reality sets in that I am single, I'm going to have to switch up my routine as well as my mindset.  There has almost, always been a we, when it came down to my thoughts. Now, me, myself and I are the new we, that I must focus on.  I gotta figure out what we are supposed to be doing now that there is no couple residing under this roof.  Each day that I've awakened since the break-up, the next day, I don't even know how I made it thru.  But one thing is for certain, life must go on, steps must be made, in order to get past the period of pain.  Time will eventually ease the sickening feeling of loss, erase the dull ache deep in my heart, but yet I still have to get to that point.  And I'll get there, cause I've been in this place before, many years ago, but for some reason, and I do know the reason, it just feels this time will be far more a greater challenge.  But I've been challenged all of my life and made it through each and every one.  I believe the fact that it is so late in my life, so past many lessons, that I look at this situation with a sense of knowing.

The knowing comes from wisdom, comes from experience, comes from living.  I know that nothing is as it seems, I know that time has a way of flipping the script to the point that you can't possibly know what's really going on.  All you can do is wake up each day, live that day out and go on to the next.  Right now, I'm half way through the day, haven't even logged on to work, but have taken a shower, written a short story and even penned this blog posting.  The house has a totally different feel to it.  The kitchen sink is actually empty, the sitting room is clutter free, could this be a sign that my surroundings are reflective of my present state of mind?  I've not eaten today, not a big eater when my heart is troubled, but I'll grab something before the night is over.  Well, I feel like I've done something purposeful today, even if it's just random ramblings.  We'll see what tomorrow brings.  Until then, live, love and learn.  Peace.

Off Today!!!

Hey ya'll, it's Wednesday and I'm officially off.  But that's just from the gig, I'm never off from life.  Got some running around to do today and it's cold right now.  I look forward to my once a week day off, but know it is also the ONLY day that I can get anything done.  Not having my ride has really put a damper on my traveling, but it's also given me the opportunity to exercise on a regular basis.  Before, I'd drive everywhere, even up the street and around the corner.  Wear and tear on the vehicle, plus unnecessary usage of gas was at an all time high, just because, but once I get it back on the road, you better believe there'll be changes.

Let's see what's on my to-do list, first and foremost have to go check on my 16 year old.  I have a scheduled meeting with his teacher to discuss his grades while he's away.  She called me last week and said that he's doing great and I knew that he would be, I just wish that he was as focused on the "outside," but know that the scholastic environment in our neighborhood doesn't push excellence, even though it boast of it.  I'm really excited for this meeting, not so much to meet his teacher, but to see him.  I haven't seen him since before Christmas and since the vehicle isn't readily available, have to use important meetings as visiting hours as well.  The first time we went down this road, I was there on every available visit to the point that when his time away was coming to an end, he told me I didn't have to come anymore.  I'm like, yeah, right, you're my son, I'll see you as much as I want.  This time, he's kinda on his own and I think it's good for him.  He's 16, growing into a young adult, and independence and not having mommy there at every turn, is probably helping him mature more than last time.  Even the phone calls home don't include me as much.  He'll call, I'll ask how was his day, and he'll tell me and then there will be a moment of silence, and then,  "Um, can you do that for me?" he'll say next.  "That," would be three way-ing his girlfriend and I'll put down the phone after hearing her say, hello, and walk away, letting them talk until his phone time is over.  I don't mind that he doesn't want to talk to me for too long, just as long as his day has gone good, I'm satisfied.  

Once I get home, I'll prepare for my online guest spot on a friend's internet radio station.  Having my own talk show has made me sort of a celebrity and I am thrilled that he wants to include me on his show.  I'm really excited to see what the show brings today.  I'll be able to be a little bit more relaxed than the first time I was on.  I did his show, while on my live show and let's just say, that, I was on pins and needles cause I know how crunk he can get and that includes language not acceptable on my own site.  It was cool though, cause we still had fun and once I told him that I'd rather do his show when I'm not on my show, so I can "let my hair down," he was like, "bet".  So who knows how much laughter we will unleash as I let Red Hawk do her thang, cause folks are used to her keeping it real at any cost.  Not sure how long I'll be on this time, but know that after I'm done, the rest of my day will consist of folding clothes and doing dishes and preparing dinner for the family.  Fiance' is off today, and not sure if we'll have movie night or not, but as long as I've got my computer and the internet, I'll probably be working on something as the day comes to an end.

Well, I'm looking at the old clock on the wall, and I think I have a pretty good post for the day.  Gotta get ready to meet the cold weather and see what the outside world has in store for me today.  Can't be too sure with all the crime that's going on, I just pray I get out and make it back into my peaceful haven.  Until the next time I write, peace, love and light.

The Sweet Smell of Success

Hey ya'll, I decided that I would post again.  You know how addicted to blogging I was when I first started and who knows, I might get addicted again.  So here goes...well by now you've all read about my talk show that has found a new home at, My Gig.  Words can't even begin to express how happy I am for this new development.  Not only do I get to practically roll out of bed, into work, I am fulfilling my life's purpose and guess what, I never even picked up the book, Purpose Driven Life.  I don't even know who wrote it, but I do know that years ago, everyone and their deceased kin folk were grabbing the copies off of shelves AND having all kinds of "purpose driven" book parties and so on.  See that's the thing about me, I don't jump on board everyone's ship, just because I think it's going my way.  I've pretty much been a loner all my life except for the few, dear friends that I met when I was younger and we still hold a special bond, even though we don't get together much.  Years can go by and if we should physically connect, we pick right back up where we left off.  But other than them, I've learned to pretty much keep my nose to my grind and let folks do them and hopefully they let me do me.  But that's getting off topic, which is easy to do with a person who is Tri-polar. You'll have to read back some ways, I think I already posted on that subject.

Okay, where were we, oh yea, talking about me fulfilling my purpose.  Yep, that's where we were.  So right now, six days a week, I climb in my "butt buddy," my chair, and sit for six hours with a one hour break between each three hours and yap to my heart's delight.  Today, I added coffee to my routine and let's just say that my "motor mouth" was working over-time. But that's a good thing, because for what I do, there can't ever be a dull moment.  It is my job to keep my audience entertained so that not only will they hang around for that particular day, but that they will keep coming back, making me a part of their lives, just like any other form of entertainment.  My channel has been called, Trish TV, by some and I think that has a nice lil ring to it.  I really should put a disclaimer somewhere because watching me is very addicting.  I don't know what it is, besides maybe the fact that some find me rather strange, (oh, it's okay, I accept all labels that I agree with), and just can't wait to see what I'm going to do next.  But anywho, like I was saying, I couldn't be happier with the way that my life is today.  Of course it could be better, but it certainly isn't as worse as it used to be.

Things finally appear to be running smoothly down the track, and I'm not sure where we're headed, but know it's a better place than where we've been.  The year, 2013, is turning out to be quite some year already.  I can only imagine if it keeps it's current pattern, how things will be.  They say trouble don't last always and it seems as if I can finally breath a sigh of relief as things are coming together, day by day.  Every day there's something new, something exciting to get happy about.  The smile that's almost constantly on my face, seems to shine a little brighter as I look back at myself each day on camera.  It's funny, I never looked at myself this much in my life, even as a hot to trot teenager, well, at least I can't recall.  What I see, I love, because I've finally become comfortable and confident in the skin I'm in.  Could it be because I'm walking down the path that was set before me, so long ago, and all I had to do is keep going, no matter how tired I got, no matter how disappointed I became, no matter how frustrating things were and no matter how many tears of desperation I cried?  Who knows, but one thing's for sure, my star is rising and it's shinning brighter and brighter as the days go by.

I Made It!!!

Wow, it's been way too long.  We've come into another year and I'm just now getting around to blogging my first post of the year.  But never fear, this one is packed with good news.  I'm actually writing it while on my online talk show that has taken off like wild fire.  Yes, your girl has secured a spot on an online site that gives each broadcaster the opportunity to become a star.  After being in front of a web cam for almost two years now, once this opportunity presented itself, I was more than ready to jump into the spotlight.  I've just started my fifth week on the site and have already made a claim of being one of the top stars of the site.  I dubbed myself, Queen Motor Mouth of Mondo, which others hurriedly agree with.  It's no secret that my mouth can go a mile a minute and it's a good thing.  My channel is the most like a real talk show and my viewers are never left wondering if today's show will deliver.  I don't have any scripts or anything like that.  I just get on each day, knowing that the work that I do through my advising, life-coaching and motivational speaking will touch my viewers.

So many people are emotionally and mentally broken and sometimes they just need to know that someone else has made it through a similar experience as they are in.  At 45, I've been through quite a few trials and tribulations and don't mind sharing, as I believe that it's my purpose to help guide others out of distressful situations.  It's like I 'm a beacon of hope and the strength that I possess seems to transfer to my viewers as I share my wisdom with them.  I have about six loyal viewers to date and that number is gradually increasing as I get more exposure on the site.  My channel is not for everyone.  A lot of people are not ready for the big step that it takes to walk onto a more fulfilling path.  They are still trying to make something happen out of what they are familiar with.  They're basically spinning their wheels in the muddy mess they've found themselves in, hoping and praying that things will change.  I direct them to look at their situation, face reality and decide what to do next.

My own online talk show has also lead me onto other talk shows as well.  I've done two internet radio interviews and I've been asked to participate as a weekly guest speaker on one of the talk shows, Thursday Spot.  One thing leads to another, and I knew that one day all of my hard work and dedication to the one thing that is my passion would pay off.  What started out as a dream, that lead to me practicing it as a hobby, has now become my bread and butter.  Things can only get better from this point on as I continue walking on my pre-destined path.  You can catch me everyday except Wednesdays at  My Gig, 10:00 a.m. to 5:00 p.m. Central.

Straight Talk with Red Hawk

Theme Music For Straight Talk with Red Hawk
Okay, so by now, if you've been reading my blogs, you know that I have been working on quite a few things since last year.  Besides working on more writing material, I've been working on getting my talk show off the ground.  Being an advisor on a psychic video chat site has enabled me to develop a following, as well as build my confidence to do what I do naturally and that is advise.  With that said, the birth of my talk show, Straight Talk with Red Hawk is soon approaching.  Nine months of being in front of the world on a site that brings out some of the worst people in the world has developed the thick skin needed to be in front of the camera for all of the world to see.  But being in front of the camera is not for me, it's for the thousands of hurting people who have been led to my room since March 22, 2011. 

Working on that particular site has it's drawbacks though.  For one, no matter how rude a visitor is, the rule is that I can't be rude back.  Are you serious, me not give them back what they need when they come at me sideways is not in my character.  I must admit that when I first started working there, some would come to see what kind of can of whoop ass I was going to open up on anyone who disrespected me.  After all, I'm trying to save the world in the little time that we have left and you wanna come up in my peaceful room and cause a disturbance???  But over time, I learned to just verbally spank them with the truth or attention that they were looking for and send them on their way.   Which brings us to nine months later and even though the site has calmed down considerably, I believe it is my time to move on to greener pastures, well, at least explore other avenues of doing what I do without the threat of people who obviously delight in misery coming in, interrupting my flow and trying to keep the people who genuinely need my assistance from getting what they need.

Straight Talk with Red Hawk has been developing in my mind for quite some time.  It has always been my desire to help as many people at one time while fulfilling my life's destiny of being a motivational speaker and talk show host.  I do it nightly, and am now looking for the right platform to do so.  I love the space that I am at now, but there are restrictions and a person like me, with so much to achieve in so little time, does not need restrictions when it comes to living out my life's mission.  For what I do there, the financial gain is limited.  I'd love to have a night where everyone who needs what I have is willing and able to pay for my services as they should.  When I have to spend five minutes on one of my impromptu commercials telling them they NEED and SHOULD take me private, is irritating to say the least.

So as I'm developing my talk show format, I'm also looking for sponsorship.  Nope, nothing major, just people who are willing and able to pay for the time that they spend in my room, getting fat and full off of my wisdom and entertained by my energetic presence.  I know I was born to do what I am doing, and therefore now that I'm on my chosen path, it's time to put money to my time.  I've been compared to Ms. O, Dr. Phil and even Wendy Williams, if that's the case, I need a handful of what they're making, doing what they're doing.

Sponsorship for my show can be simply put into my paypal account at makindineros@yahoo.com.  I'm not going to tell you how much to send, that's on how much you feel my time is worth to you.  For the amount of time I spend trying to get my due at my present site, I'd rather not even bring up finances, as I think it's more important to stay on topic with healing the hurting spirits that come into my room daily.  Once I find my new digs and set up a schedule, I'll be sure to update my followers as to where they can find me, until then, continue to check me out at Present Home of Straight Talk with Red Hawk.

Ram in the Bush

All who know me, know that I am a very spiritual person.  I didn't say that I was a "shoe-in" to Heaven, I said that I am a VERY spiritual person.  With that said, let me begin my post.  As a spiritual person, I believe that everything happens for a reason and that when one door closes, another one HAS to open, it just does.  Case in point, today, was expecting money from a source, an unreliable source, but a source nonetheless.  As fate would have it, when I need money the most, it is not available.  Before disappointment took root and ruined my day, I reminded myself that this money is NOT promised, therefore I can not and should not ever depend on it to save the day.  After calming my spirit, I set back on my quest of making something else MORE reliable happen to spring forth some kind of cash flow.  Let me tell you that with everything that I have going on, as long as there is a trickle of cash, I have something to work with.  I live on bare necessities at this point, so no real need for millions just yet.  So I am truly grateful to have two pennies to rub together at the end of the day.  Two pennies plus two pennies equal four pennies and so on. 

Getting back to the topic, Ram in the Bush...after getting back onto my computer and checking my emails, there awaiting me was an unexpected email that I was sure to see in about four more days, but was staring me right in the face TODAY!!!  My ram in the bush was here.  As relief flooded over me, knowing that I didn't have to go the entire weekend without accomplishing some of my financial obligations, I thanked God for seeing me through.  Days like this I am trying to alleviate from my life.  I've claimed 2012 as my year of "getting out of this hell," the hell of lack.  I wanna have enough cash flowing that I can take care of all of my bills, which aren't many, I wanna have enough cash flowing so that I can take advantage of things on sale when I want them, not necessarily when I NEED them and they are NOT on sale, I just wanna live comfortably without wondering who, what and where, my next stream of cash is coming from. 

I think I have a pretty good supply of streams, just need to get the CONTINUOUS flow going.  I mean, I appreciate the trickles, but would really love to see what it feels like to live in abundance as opposed to constant lack.  I'm doing my best to create that which I seek and believe that in due time, before I know it, my monsoon of cash will overtake me and these days of lack will be no more.