Straight Talk with Red Hawk

Theme Music For Straight Talk with Red Hawk
Okay, so by now, if you've been reading my blogs, you know that I have been working on quite a few things since last year.  Besides working on more writing material, I've been working on getting my talk show off the ground.  Being an advisor on a psychic video chat site has enabled me to develop a following, as well as build my confidence to do what I do naturally and that is advise.  With that said, the birth of my talk show, Straight Talk with Red Hawk is soon approaching.  Nine months of being in front of the world on a site that brings out some of the worst people in the world has developed the thick skin needed to be in front of the camera for all of the world to see.  But being in front of the camera is not for me, it's for the thousands of hurting people who have been led to my room since March 22, 2011. 

Working on that particular site has it's drawbacks though.  For one, no matter how rude a visitor is, the rule is that I can't be rude back.  Are you serious, me not give them back what they need when they come at me sideways is not in my character.  I must admit that when I first started working there, some would come to see what kind of can of whoop ass I was going to open up on anyone who disrespected me.  After all, I'm trying to save the world in the little time that we have left and you wanna come up in my peaceful room and cause a disturbance???  But over time, I learned to just verbally spank them with the truth or attention that they were looking for and send them on their way.   Which brings us to nine months later and even though the site has calmed down considerably, I believe it is my time to move on to greener pastures, well, at least explore other avenues of doing what I do without the threat of people who obviously delight in misery coming in, interrupting my flow and trying to keep the people who genuinely need my assistance from getting what they need.

Straight Talk with Red Hawk has been developing in my mind for quite some time.  It has always been my desire to help as many people at one time while fulfilling my life's destiny of being a motivational speaker and talk show host.  I do it nightly, and am now looking for the right platform to do so.  I love the space that I am at now, but there are restrictions and a person like me, with so much to achieve in so little time, does not need restrictions when it comes to living out my life's mission.  For what I do there, the financial gain is limited.  I'd love to have a night where everyone who needs what I have is willing and able to pay for my services as they should.  When I have to spend five minutes on one of my impromptu commercials telling them they NEED and SHOULD take me private, is irritating to say the least.

So as I'm developing my talk show format, I'm also looking for sponsorship.  Nope, nothing major, just people who are willing and able to pay for the time that they spend in my room, getting fat and full off of my wisdom and entertained by my energetic presence.  I know I was born to do what I am doing, and therefore now that I'm on my chosen path, it's time to put money to my time.  I've been compared to Ms. O, Dr. Phil and even Wendy Williams, if that's the case, I need a handful of what they're making, doing what they're doing.

Sponsorship for my show can be simply put into my paypal account at makindineros@yahoo.com.  I'm not going to tell you how much to send, that's on how much you feel my time is worth to you.  For the amount of time I spend trying to get my due at my present site, I'd rather not even bring up finances, as I think it's more important to stay on topic with healing the hurting spirits that come into my room daily.  Once I find my new digs and set up a schedule, I'll be sure to update my followers as to where they can find me, until then, continue to check me out at Present Home of Straight Talk with Red Hawk.

Ram in the Bush

All who know me, know that I am a very spiritual person.  I didn't say that I was a "shoe-in" to Heaven, I said that I am a VERY spiritual person.  With that said, let me begin my post.  As a spiritual person, I believe that everything happens for a reason and that when one door closes, another one HAS to open, it just does.  Case in point, today, was expecting money from a source, an unreliable source, but a source nonetheless.  As fate would have it, when I need money the most, it is not available.  Before disappointment took root and ruined my day, I reminded myself that this money is NOT promised, therefore I can not and should not ever depend on it to save the day.  After calming my spirit, I set back on my quest of making something else MORE reliable happen to spring forth some kind of cash flow.  Let me tell you that with everything that I have going on, as long as there is a trickle of cash, I have something to work with.  I live on bare necessities at this point, so no real need for millions just yet.  So I am truly grateful to have two pennies to rub together at the end of the day.  Two pennies plus two pennies equal four pennies and so on. 

Getting back to the topic, Ram in the Bush...after getting back onto my computer and checking my emails, there awaiting me was an unexpected email that I was sure to see in about four more days, but was staring me right in the face TODAY!!!  My ram in the bush was here.  As relief flooded over me, knowing that I didn't have to go the entire weekend without accomplishing some of my financial obligations, I thanked God for seeing me through.  Days like this I am trying to alleviate from my life.  I've claimed 2012 as my year of "getting out of this hell," the hell of lack.  I wanna have enough cash flowing that I can take care of all of my bills, which aren't many, I wanna have enough cash flowing so that I can take advantage of things on sale when I want them, not necessarily when I NEED them and they are NOT on sale, I just wanna live comfortably without wondering who, what and where, my next stream of cash is coming from. 

I think I have a pretty good supply of streams, just need to get the CONTINUOUS flow going.  I mean, I appreciate the trickles, but would really love to see what it feels like to live in abundance as opposed to constant lack.  I'm doing my best to create that which I seek and believe that in due time, before I know it, my monsoon of cash will overtake me and these days of lack will be no more. 

Trisha's Treasures: Gems of Inspiration

Shameless promotion this year is the only way that I see me reaching the people who are going to become supporters of my work as well as followers of my brand.  Not sure where we're going, but want to invite those whose eyes have found themselves reading these words to get on the train to glory.  They say every journey has to start somewhere and well, mine starts here.  If this is your first time meeting my words, then you are in the middle of my success story.  I've been on this journey for quite some time, nineteen years to be exact.  I wrote my first book when I was twenty-five years old and if Ms. Winfrey had given me a chance like she did that bogus story writer, who knows where I would be today.  But since she didn't, I've had to crawl my way at a snails pace, year after year, project after project, hope after hope, to this very day. 

In the midst of me raising my four children, two of whom I'm still TRYING to raise, I've planted all kinds of creative seeds within my own garden of success.  I must say that I've tried all kinds of endeavors to get to my mountain top.  After leaving a job that I worked at for thirteen years, I started my own mobile spa service.  That endeavor was made possible by me becoming a product seller for a wellness company.  You can say that I'm an opportunist at best, always looking for the opportunity to make something new and exciting and LUCRATIVE happen.  My spa service was a great way for me to meet new people and provide a service that many felt was more of a luxury than anything.  But that's probably because they didn't understand the importance of self-love and enjoying the blessing of someone catering to their poor, tired feet and spirit and so that business didn't last too long.  I also think it was because of my location.  Had I been in California or even Florida, I believe I would have had more feet than I could ever imagine on my client list. 

But that was many moons ago and now I'm just concentrating on my creative seeds by spreading words of wisdom through my writing and speaking endeavors.  I'm on book number three with several more beating on my mind to escape from brain to paper, daily.  Which brings us to the title of this post,  Trisha's Treasures: Gems of Inspiration.  This book took me over four years to complete.  It started out as a few one-liners to be used as bumper stickers or t-shirt slogans, but as they grew daily, I decided to turn them into a book.  The title was the last thing that came to me.  Trisha's Treasures: Gems of Inspiration is full of lil nuggets of thought-provoking words that, if applied to our daily lives, could turn each of us into productive AND positive people.  Not to say that you're not already that, but there is a whole group of people who could benefit from browsing the pages and getting a dose of  what I'd like to call, "think right".  So perhaps YOU don't need this book, but feel there is someone in your life who could benefit from some "gems" in their life, go on and purchase a copy for them.  It will be the best form of charity you do this year.  Once they open the pages, they won't be able to put it down and once they do put it down, they'll pick it up over and over again.  Why???  Because it's anointed. 

Today I Cried

Yep, today I cried.  I don't cry that often; I'm too strong for that.  But I wasn't always THIS strong, so over the years, from birth to about three years ago, I'd say I've cried an ocean of tears for some reason or another.  For the most part, I've not had a reason to cry.  Well I have, but what good would crying do, it wouldn't help the situations that I've been dealing with, so why waste the energy?  But today I cried.  I let a multitude of years gone by worth of disappointment, confusion and frustration pour out of my eyes in the form of tears, as my throat threw up pitiful sounds of heart wrenching moans that only God could possibly understand.  I sobbed uncontrollably as my fiance', who had made the mistake of showing disappointment the night before in regards to what he thought I had prepared for dinner and finding out it wasn't what he thought it was, tried to console me.  Too late for consolation.  It was his innocent act of disappointment that triggered my crying session as he tried to explain his attitude from the previous night and apologize for upsetting me. 

Although 2011 was a great year in regards to me fulfilling some of my goals, it was also plagued with things that I never thought I'd have to go through.  Never say never, huh???  Too draining to elaborate, I'll just say that my relationship with my daughter is strained, my fiance' and I were separated for three months due to his past, my son got caught up with some bad kids and is away from home until he can prove his innocence, my finances are STILL lacking despite my feverish attempts to change that daily, are among the top things that I've been dealing with.  And on top of all of those things, right before the New Year arrived, some crazy, drug induced fool attempting to smash in one of God's great creations; my face, by throwing a brick, like a fast ball at Cardinal Stadium, at my windshield, passenger side, as we made our way down to an exclusive event  celebrating my fiance's cousin's birthday.  Not wanting to miss the evening we had been waiting for, I coaxed my dear into handling his "business" after the evening was over.  As luck or fate would have it, he was able to take out the money for the new window on the guy's entire outer shell, satisfying us for the moment.

I must say that crying did not change anything that I am dealing with, but the release, although leaving my eyes looking like those of a newborn, naked mole rat once I finally woke back up, has lightened my spirit.  I think about that song where it says, "let her cry cause she's a laaaaadddddaaaaayyyyy" and I remember that it's okay for me to cry when I need to.  Holding tears back cause I think it's weak was something that I never thought while growing up.  I cried about everything.  Not that I'm going to begin crying again about EVERYTHING, but this cry that I cried today, felt great.  It made me feel human again, instead of like a superwomanish robot.  I'm a lady, it's okay to cry, it doesn't mean I'm weak, just means I have emotions and tears are a tool of release.  Let yours flow as well.

Nine Months and Counting (Re-post)

Okay, so it's like the 5th day of the New Year and I've decided to start blogging again.  I won't say that I had writer's block as much as I will say that I just didn't want to write about what was going on in my life these months that I've been M.I.A.  Whhhaatttttt???  I hear you asking in your head.  How can the most wordiest person I've read not want to write about what's going on in her life?  How can she not want to write, she writes about EVERYTHING???  Well, I don't know, it just happened.  One day I woke up and  my will to write about my life had lost it's will.  But today, the 5th day of the New Year, it has returned.  So here goes.

The title of this post is "NINE MONTHS AND COUNTING".  I'm thinking that perhaps it's been that long since I last wrote.  I'll do the math later, but anyway, nine months ago I started working on an online psychic video chatline.  PSYCHICCCCCC???  I hear you again.  Yes, psychic.  I found the work through a friend who I'd met on one of the MANY networking sites that I've subscribed to over the past umpteenth years.  This person was starting her own website and was looking for workers.  I let her know that I didn't consider myself a psychic as much as I considered myself a GREAT advisor on life in general.  Well I sent her a page of samples of advice that I had given over the years on various networking sites and she thought I was excellent for her site, despite me not claiming to be a psychic perse'.  Her site never really got off the ground and it's unfortunate because she was willing to pay me top dollar a minute for my expertise. 

Even though her site never took off, she was linked to other sites as well and recommended that I apply to one that she was also affiliated with.  I applied the day I received her email and started working that very same day.  That date was March 22nd of last year and I've been working there ever since.  I'll say that the journey has not been an easy one although I LOVE what I am doing there.  When I first started I was basically trying to fit in as a "regular" person amongst those who proudly said that they could see into one's future.  I wasn't concerned about any one's future because I wanted to concentrate on what was going on in there lives at the present time, to get to a better future.  In my mind, why worry about your future if you're not willing to deal with your present?  Your future is based on your present and how you're dealing with that, is what I thought. 

When I said it has not been an easy journey, let me elaborate.  It's VERY easy for me to sit in front of my webcam and speak, as though I'm getting paid like Oprah, to the many unhappy and confused individuals that find their way into my room and actually stay for what I have to offer.  Most visitors who find their way onto our site are looking for quick answers as to what the future holds for them.  I make it a point to tell my roomies that tomorrow holds nothing for you if you don't wake up.  Why worry about a day that might not come.  Now today, what's going on???  The thing that I do NOT like about my work is the fact that although I come out the gate yearning to help the lost souls, the lost souls aren't willing to do their part in making our interaction a win/win situation.  See, I am supposed to get paid for my services.  I feel that my room is one of the rooms a person can enter and get instant help without spending a penny.  But is that fair to me?  The basis for the site is for people to come and get the answers or help that they need and leave something for the person who has done them that service.  But since I run my room more like a talk/empowerment show, they are getting something for nothing. 

I love helping people, which is sort of a fault because I'm going to help regardless if anyone pays.  I live to get on that camera and speak til my heart hurts to help save the wounded hearts that sit for hours and some past normal sleeping hours for the sane.  I've become the new drug instead of the drugs that I'm sometimes accused of being on.  Oh, yeah, that's what I was saying about the not easy journey on my job.  My room is a public room, people from ALL walks of life can come in.  Some are so miserable that they only come to the site to cause disruption, these people are called trolls.  In the beginning the trolls came in like released imps from hell and reeked havoc on the rooms that they entered.  In the beginning I wasn't as composed as I am now and would GLADLY and BRUTALLY go tit for tat with the evvviiillllll doers as I called them.  They would hurl horrible insults at me, accuse me of being on some kind of drug because of my BIG BEAUTIFUL INSIGHTFUL EYES..."hey crack queen" they would type.  Man, thinking back on those days, only the strong could have survived and guess what, I am VERY strong that is why I have been there for nine months and counting. 

Anywho, I guess I should go on and tell you the site that I work at so you can come on over and visit me sometimes. My direct link is www.oranum.com/psychics/mi3cents.  Once you click onto this link make sure you check the box to be alerted when I am online.  I don't keep a schedule because my life is so unpredictable, but you'll be one of the first to know when I do come online by way of email notification.  In my absence make sure that you read my profile so that you will know exactly what it is that I do here and how I can assist you in your struggle to find clarity within the confines of your being.  I will warn you, I still have to get jiggy with a few rude visitors, but for the most part, when I'm on, it will be the most inspirational/motivational/empowering/captivating time you have spent in such a room; at least that's what they tell me.  :  )